Saturday, March 31, 2012

Are you okay ?



Them : Are you okay ?
Me : Yeah ! I'm okay . Sure . *fake smile*

Are you guys crazy ? Asking am I okay or not ? I lose almost everything in my life . I lost my heart . I lose him . Why can't you guys understand me ? WHY ?!!!

I'm feel sick . Yes I'm crying . I can't stop crying . I think I'm okay just like you can see . But the reality I'm not that okay .

Too missing him . Too hard to accept all this things in a short time . Please calm me down . Don't torture me . I can be crazy if you guys keep asking the same question . Why everybody just too selfish ? WHY ?!!!

Aku bukan menyeksa diri aku . Tapi aku cuma mahu meluahkan sahaja . Aku sakit dalam . Luar aku okay . Tolong la kau faham . Aku pon taknak menyeksa dia yang telah pergi tinggalkan aku . Aku tahu dia takkan boleh hidup balik . Aku tahu .

Tapi tolong la jangan marah-2 kan aku bila aku berkeadaan begini . Aku perlukan masa . Perlukan ruang . Perlukan seseorang . Tapi kau marah-2 aku . Kan bagus kau doakan aku mati je . Boleh aku ikut dia sekali . Boleh aku aman dengan dia . Tak perlu nak menyusahkan kepala otak kau fikirkan macam mana nak selesaikan masalah aku . 

Just missing him . Please let me cry . I feel okay after that . You can't see the pains that I feel . Just let me cry please . I don't mean want to torture him . No ! I just too loving him . My soul mate leave me . I don't have other to love anymore . To share what I feel . I'm just ALONE .


I'm a lonely girl


p/s : Continue my life without him . Its hurt . ='(

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